So yesterday I wrote this long and probably rambling post about Noah and taking the PSSA and wanting to make a statement but not using him to do it and then how The New Psychiatrist (TNP) doesn't get me at all. But I forgot to tell you this!
In our conversation, TNP not only told me to not waste my energy on fighting for Noah, but she also told me to take that energy and put it on my other child, who isn't getting enough attention.
Yes. She. Did.
And the only way I can take that after pondering and twisting it around in my noggin, is that she was implying we are neglecting Kiel.
Or maybe just that we don't give him as much attention as we do Noah.
Almost the same thing right? At least to a super sensitive mom it is.
I did not react to it when she said it. I calmly filed it away and then bitched about it to Rich when I got home.
I think that saying anything to her about it is just going to make me sound defensive. There really is no point.
She isn't here. She doesn't see what really goes on in our home. She has only met Kiel once.
Do I wish I was able to spend more time just with him? Yes, I do. Do I wish there were more chances to take him places without Noah? Yes, I do.
Do I think he is neglected? Hell no! Do I think he doesn't get enough attention? No, not really. Do I think the fact that he gets less alone time with us than Noah did is much different than any second child. No, probably not.
I do think her intentions are good, but damn, her delivery sucks.